Christmas Time..

Oh how I hate you this year. Seriously, I do! You snuck up on me once again! I had 3/4 of my shopping done by the time black friday was over. I assumed (BIG MISTAKE) that I would be done early and would be able to enjoy christmas time. Wrong. Wrong. Wrong. Christmas is next week and I am still not done. So because of my wonderful procrastination talents that I have, the weekend before Christmas I am going to be so freaking busy. Tomorrow I am going to Tyler's grandparents house to make cookies while him and his grandpa make fudge! I'm sure its going to be a fun day and Kyla always LOVES going there. She has so much fun. So I am pretty excited. It was supposed to be last weds, but sickness has taken over our little family and theirs also. So, my friday is booked. Saturday Tyler and I are going christmas shopping. Sunday my mom and I are going christmas shopping while tyler goes and hangs out with his best friend who is home from Florida. Monday I am making cookies with my momma. I am hoping the rest of the week I can relax until the christmas festivities start! :) I am so excited for christmas this year though. Kyla is going to be SO much fun. Last year she slept (So boring). She has already found her gifts and even started trying to open them. Oh I love my little girl.I am also working hard on trying to get "along" with people.. certain people that I do not like.. at all. Ugh! It's difficult. I am not good at pretending, but I figured I will try.. atleast until christmas is over! :) Trust me, I will not be making it my New Years Resolution. Why set myself up for failure, right?

Well, I think I am going to relax before bed. kbye! :)

Disgusting..

Doesn't even begin to describe what I just read. A two year old was shopping with her grandmother and aunt wandered away just for a second a sex offender snatched her up took off her diaper and tried to rape her in the next aisle over! How freaking sick!! Again, I can't even begin to describe how angry this makes me. Now before I talk about the todder wandering away I am first going to talk about how sick of an individual this man is. I can honestly say he should have NEVER been allowed out with the public. In 2003, he raped a seven year old and only got four years for that. FOUR YEARS!?!?! How ridiculous!!!! He now can face 21 years for what he did. I am sorry, but I do not agree that 21 years is even close to being enough punishment for what this sick guy did.

I truly hope parents will read this story and realize how quickly something horribe can happen. I hate being in the store and watching young children running around from their parents and the parents not saying anything. Seriously?! Do they think nothing can happen?? Child predators are EVERYWHERE. Even in the store your always in, even in the coffee shop that you always go to, even at the gas station you fill up at all the time etc. Parents, please keep your children with you at all times! It kills me that stuff like this happens. It is more than disgusting!!

Opinions are more than welcome.. what do you think about this?! What punishment do you think he should get??

I left out a lot of my opinion, because writing more about it will just make me that much more angry!

The Holidays Are Here..

And there is a certain family out there who is dealing without a loved one. I want to write this post about this family. I was younger when I met this girl.. I want to say I was in the 5th grade. Since the day I first met her she was someone who I looked up to. What a great role model she truly ways. She could light up a room with her beautiful smile and she always seemed so happy. Gosh, why couldn't I be like that? She ended up going to college for Nursing (such a perfect fit for her). She was that nurse that everyone would want. She would have such a great bedside manner. That was just her. She treated everyone nicely and with respect. She finally graduated college with a bachelor's degree. She had such high dreams that were now at reach. Not too long after graduation, though, she was diagnosed with cancer. Not just any cancer, but adrenal cortical cancer. This cancer is so rare it only affects one out of a million people per year. So why her?! Why someone who was such a wonderful young woman? Why such an amazing family. Okay, enough with all these questions.. she'll fight it. Nothing like this happens in our small town. Nothing would ever happen to someone so young. She seemed to be getting worse and worse. She was going through so much treatment.. treatments that didn't seem to be working. They even held a benefit to help with the cost of all these treatments. October 13,2010 a wonderful, beautiful, 23 year old lost the battle of her life. I was devestated when I found out. Why her? Why this family?! They don't deserve this... she didn't deserve this! To top it off the mother of this woman lost her son a few years before this due to a tragic accident. Such a strong, amazing woman just lost her only child she had left. I can't imagine feeling that pain. On Kyla's first birthday I attended calling hours. I never thought it would have been so difficult, but they were. This whole point of this post is I want to give all my thoughts and prayers and I hope others will to, to this wonderful family who has to deal with this holiday without a loved one. This beautiful mother no longer has her children with her during this time. To make matters worse, the mother of this girl also lost her sister the same exact day she lost her daughter! It was really a horrible day. So I would like to ask everyone to take some time out of this busy month to pray for this famil. They truly, truly deserve it. I will post two sites that you can go look at if you want some more information. R.I.P. Roselyn you are truly missed! I am keeping everyone in my prayers, because they truly deserve it right now!!

http://www.timesreporter.com/communities/carroll/x879452772/Young-cancer-victim-remembered-for-spirit

http://www.timesreporter.com/communities/carroll/x1767883588/Salineville-woman-dies-in-cycle-crash-cancer-also-claims-niece-23-same-day

Three Months is a long time.

I really need to start writing here more often. I say that all the time though. Well my little girl is no longer a baby. She has officially entered toddlerhood. Her first birthday went great! :) I couldn't have been happier. She is walking and talking like crazyI am getting so excited for christmas, and for once I finished christmas shopping already! Great huh? I have also come to the realization that having more children is out of the question. Why you ask? Because I have a very spoiled one year old and I like it that way, actually. :) Judge me if you will, but she is happy getting all the attention and all the toys which makes me a very happy momma. She does well with other children though. She shares like a pro! Yes, you heard right my spoiled little brat who doesn't even share with her momma shares her toys with other kids! Okay, maybe not all kids, but she shares with Ivan (who is her best friend). At the age of one, she already has a best friend :) That is a whole story on it's own that I will be sure to write about.

As of right now, both kyla and momma are getting over being sick. A sucky way to spend thanksgiving. It didn't help that I was one of those crazies standing outside toys r us in the pouring rain for three hours waiting for them to open ;) But it sure was fun and I got everything I wanted! Go me! :) I sat there and said "next year if it's raining my butt isn't going" but, I think that was a lie! I would rather go to toys r us than any other store on black friday. The people there weren't so rude and obnoxious. Overrall, it was a good night. I will write more some other time :)

Wow.

It has been a long time since I have wrote in here. My life has been busy, busy, busy. So.. where to begin.. Kyla is ten months old now. I really can't believe it. It seems like just yesterday I was bringing her home from the hospital. Time sure does fly. She now has two teeth!! I took her off the binkie a few days ago. That is a struggle. She has about 348423123156 melt downs a day. I think im missing the binkie more than she is! She crawls like a pro now (no more army crawling) and cruises on furniture. I think i'm probably going to cry when she starts walking. So I decided to do something totally different for her first birthday. Everyone does a party, so I really didn't want to do that. I wanted something to reflect her and what she loved to do. Well, she loves waterparks, but who wants to play in the water in the middle of October, not I! So I thought an indoor waterpark would be awsome! So I booked a HUGE room for her party. It's going to be Tyler, Kyla, Me, My dad, my mom, my sister and my brother. And the room is like a house. It has two queen beds, a sitting area with a fireplace and a couch (the pulls out into a queen bed), a bathroom and then upstairs in the loft is another queen bed and a bathroom. And the room all together has three TV's. Im pretty stoked! So other than planning her party, and taking away the binkie I am also taking her off the bottle (which I think is the easiest). Ohh.. and she is off of baby food. She hates it now. Where is my baby going?! :( So I was reading on the internet and I seen this cup called a tilty cup. It has no valve (so it's easier to suck from) and theres this platform thingy inside so the baby doesn't have to tilt their head back as far to get whatever is in the cup. I think im going out today and buying one. Possibly. I'm going to look at them and see if it would work for kyla. I'm hoping it will. She is so good on a sippy cup, but she doesn't get the concept of tilting your head back as far :( Well I think that's all the rambling now. If I buy the cup I'll have to post about how it works.

Hmm.

It's been a while since i've updated everyone, so since Kyla is sleeping I figured I would. I should be sleeping since I have to get up super early tomorrow. The downfall of having a doctor's office 45 freaking minutes away :( Actually it's an orthondist, but whatever. I am dreading my apt. First off, I havent been there for a year.. Oopps! :( Second, everytime I go I can't eat for like a week :(. (hence why I haven't been there for a year haha). So kyla is eight and a half months old now. She still isn't crawling, but she is starting to pull herself up. She officially drinks out of a sippy cup now (all by herself). My little girl is growing up :( It's so sad to think she used to be so super tiny!! I can't even believe it! I'm taking her to the lake/beach for the first time on Sunday! YAY!! :) I am so excited. I hope she loves it as much as her momma does. Then ty and I are going to be taking her to the zoo sometime this summer. I am super excited about that too. Oh the life of being a mommy. Well this will be it for now. I have a ton of things to do before I go to bed tonight. Goodnight :)

It's Been Forever.

I think my stress levels would be lower if I took time to blog every day. I like this because it gives me a chance to vent - which I don't get to do very often - and I can ramble on about dumb stuff and it makes me feel so much better! So I am officially becoming exhausted and part of it is my fault. So let me explain.. Kyla is in need of mommy's attention twenty-four seven. I never in my wildest dreams would have thought being a mother was going to be such a tough job. I get nothing accomplished during the day because she wants to be held allllll day long :( And I know what you are thinking.. you get a break durings naps. Wrong! Very, very wrong! Kyla does not believe in naps most days. Her naps consist of like a 15 minute cat nap! ugh!! By the end of the day I am exhausted. So she has a pretty good night schedule going on. She is usually in bed by nine. This brings me to why being exhausted is my fault. She usually goes to bed by nine and wakes up around 8. Plenty of time for me to get some sleep, but I never go to bed when she does. I should.. I really, really should, but I don't and I have my reasons. 1) that is the ONLY time I can get something done.. rather it be laundry, washing bottles, making bottles, researching stuff on the net.. whatever. AND that is the only time I have "peace and quiet" and am not needed by anybody. I like it. It's my only source of "me" time and I like to take advantage of it. This is what im thinking.. every other day go to sleep when she does and on the other days have the "me" time. hmm.. hopefully I can do it. It sounds like a good plan, but we'll see.

My life has been consisting of drama, drama, drama. I have had people in my life who I have kept in for certain reasons that are no longer needed because they cause nothing but trouble. I may only be 19, but I deserve respect! If you don't agree with my parenting styles that is your problem.. you either respect them or you don't see my daughter. The end! It's actually quite annoying how grown adults are acting like their five.. seriously, grow up!!

As for my beautiful daughter, she is growing like a weed. She is getting bigger and bigger everyday and is learning so much. Today she crawled across the couch!! Yay!! Still won't crawl when she's on the floor though. Maybe soon she will. She rolls like crazy now. It's sad to think she used to be so small :( I miss my little baby girl!

I guess that is good enough for now. I'm tired and need some sleep.

Goodnight :)