If she isn't her fathers child..

I must say to whoever invented 'tom and jerry' thank you! Because of you I can actually get laundry done. Kyla's eyes are glued to the tv (like her fathers are when tom and jerry comes on). I wouldn't ever think she would like it because it doesn't ever say anything, but she LOVES it! Judge me if you like, but I don't want to run naked! Enough said. haha Thats it. :)

This makes my sunday..

When I hear Kyla giggling in the background! She's so happy today! Want to know what else makes my Sunday? Going shopping! It's not going to be much fun, because im forced to leave her with Tyler. He says I don't get out much without her and I need this time to be 'not on mommy duty'. Makes sense.. Because I never get out without her, but it's because I can't stand to be without her! I'm worried I am just going to want to rush home and be with her. I'm so pathetic! haha. I will try to have a good time.. I promise! Update on Kyla: She is going through the 'i want to be independent stage'. It's so darn cute though! She wants to pick out her clothes every day, she picks out her own 'socks' and 'soes', and even wants to walk to the car (NOT CARRIED) and climb in herself. Oh and the most recent thing.. she wants to wipe herself when getting her diaper changed! Where did my little baby go?! I really want to work on potty training her when it gets warm out.. which hopefully will be soon! I've been reading a lot about it online and I think im going to try the three-day training or whatever it's called. Pretty much your letting the child run naked. I think I am going to give that a shot and maybe it will work. Or maybe not. We'll see. I am trying to stay positive though! She is young still (Only seventeen months old) so if she decides she's not ready i'll just wait. I don't want to be one of those parents that drives themselves crazy because their child just isn't catching on. (So if you notice I'm doing that please let me know!) haha. Well I think that's all for now. Hopefully I find some cute stuff for kyla while I'm out shopping!

So Insane!

So I put my blog as private because I was going to post pictures of Kyla (because I have that whole crazy fear thing going on). Well I am no longer going to post pictures of her at all! (Sorry Guys) Because my fears definately came true (not for me, luckily, but they happened to someone else). Theres a blog that I follow and she just posted about some woman stealing her pictures (Of her and her daughter) and posting them on the internet and claiming it's her.. with a different name and everything. It's insane! Perfect reason I did not want pictures of my daughter on the internet. Any creeper could take those pictures and post them ANYWHERE claiming kyla is theirs and what not. And strange people can see the pictures and it's just retarded. Nothing is safe on the internet. For real. So now I am really going to keep pictures of kyla off of here. For good. But a positive my blog will stay public so people will actually know when I post. (I hate that about being private). People can steal my words and crap, but stealing pictures of my daughter.. heck no! I know there is a way to make it so people can't do that, but I dont know how. So for people that do post pictures of their children on here (i am not bashing you in any way, by the way!) Make sure you keep on the look out for crazy creepers like the person who did this! That's all for now. :)

Stress, Stress, Stress!

My stress level is super, super high right now. So, we have decided not to take that house and instead are going to move closer to tyler's work (and further from my family). Kind of a bummer. But for only a hundred dollars more a month we will be cutting his commute time by half. Pretty worth it to me. Yes, we will have to live in an apartment and yes it's not very big but he has the eat in kitchen, living room, two beds and a bath and that's all we really need. I know they are good because my friend lives there! :) It's in a really cute area. I think we might go up and fill out an application today. Or possibly tomorrow. We'll see I guess. I am just so ready to finally move out of my parents house. So, so ready! Lately, tyler and I have been sleeping out in the living room on couches so Kyla can have her own room because she sleeps better when we aren't in their. I've been ready for so long to get our own place, but since tyler's last job had horrible pay we couldn't. Now that he has an awsome job I am more than ready! We'll so how all of this goes. I really don't want anymore let downs. I promise guys I will get the park pictures up soon. I misplaced my digital camera. :( I will be on a search though, promise! Oh by the way since I put my blog back to private it no longer tells you when I update. Dumb, I know!

Okay, I promise I will get a post on here for you guys! I'm running a tad behind :( But, a positive I have pictures of Kyla at the park :) Yay! I have some running around to do today and then I will get these pictures on.

I'm a party pooper.

I'm not going to do that 'ten things' thing. It's not because I don't want anybody to know all the good stuff about me, it's because I can never think of things like that when I'm put on the spot. So if there is anything you want to know about me just ask me! I'll be open :)

The weather is going to be beautiful today so I am excited to take kyla to the park! I am hoping it'll put us both in a good mood. Maybe it will even make her sleep better tonight (boy I hope so). As of right now she is screaming in her crib because I didn't give her a cup. Oh yes, I am THAT mean. It's getting pretty ridiculous.. she is waking up 2-3 in the night for the dang thing. I seriously thought we were out of this stage a long, long time ago. So I'm going to start putting my foot down! :)

I'm sorry I haven't had any pictures up for you guys, but for some reason everytime I take the camera out she runs. She used to love pictures! Another one of her crazy stages..? I hope so! I am really, really going to try to get some pictures at the park! I have to remember to take my camera first haha. I can never remember that thing and pictures on my phone pretty much blow. I don't have one of those awesome smart phones. Ty keeps trying to talk me into them, but I refuse to pay for them. That's another like fifty bucks on our bill.. no thanks!

Remember that quilt I said I really, really wanted to make?! It was a few posts back (cmon you can't forget I dont write THAT much) well here is the link!http://www.soyouthinkyourecrafty.com/1999/12/anthropologie-inspired-knotted-quilt-tutorial-pt-1/

Isn't it so pretty! I love, love, love it! Seriously! I want that on my bed. Probably not white though because I doubt it would stay white very long. It really doesn't look/sound hard to do, but I have no crafty skills at all! Oh, and speaking of crafty skills.. guess what I got.. my great grandma's sewing machine. The thing still works! (By the way she died when I was six and she's had this thing since she was married.. how crazy is that?!) I refused for them to get rid of it considering she had it so long. When she died, my aunt got it and well now my aunt passed away so I'm taking it. Me with a sewing machine is going to be interesting to the least. I am determind to use it though. I don't want it to sit their and collect dust.

I think that's all I have for now. Remember, ask questions if you would like! And I will try super, super hard to get pictures of kyla at the park.

Edit: I am going to put the questions asked on here so everyone can see the answers :)

Q: Do you have something your terrified of: I could go on forever. I'm afraid of spiders, snakes, rats, mice, bugs, bees etc. My biggest fear would have to be heights though. Completely terrified to the point where I can put myself into a panic attack! When I go on rides and you have to climb the big, tall stairs to get to it I end up freezing half way and shaking. and if someone touches me I freak out! It's horrible!

Q: Are you outgoing or laid back: I used to be super outgoing until I had Kyla. Now I am a little more laid-back and a little less adventurous. I would still rather be out and about then in though (that will probably never change).

Q: What kind of food do you like: My biggest love is Taco Bell! I can't ever get enough of it. Tyler doesn't like it though so the only time I can have it is when we go to the one close to us that has a KFC attached to it.

Q: Are you body conscious: I don't want to sound super conceited, but not really. Do I have the body I used to have before Kyla? Absolutely not! Do I wish I did? Of course! But I don't fret about it anymore. I weigh 125lbs (weighed 115 before kyla) so I still have ten pounds to lose, but I'm not even trying. I don't need to be 'super skinny'. Tyler thinks im beautiful and Kyla loves me and that is all that matters! I weighed 130-135 last summer and walked around in a bikinni and I didn't give even care. ( I wish I had that attitude about my weight and body before Kyla!)

Rambling.

Can I start off by saying I freaking hate this nasty, nasty weather? I just want to see some sunshine. Maybe that will put me in a little better mood. That being said I've been in a pretty grumpy mood lately. Not for any specific reason (maybe other than lack of sleep.. more on that later) it just seems like the smallest stuff is annoying the crap out of me. I'm moving April 2, which is roughly 17 or 18 days (give or take a few days) which sounds like a loong time, but I feel like it's not. I feel like I have this huge long list of things that I need to do before then. Maybe it's the perfectionist in me.. who knows. I always need everything to occur in a timely matter and I need everything to be perfect! So maybe I'm afraid it won't.. I've even started packing! I don't want to wait till the last minute and be even MORE stressed! I would list what all I had packed already, but I forgot. How do you forget what you already packed?! Yikes! I know I packed all of our summer clothes, the decorations that were sitting on my headboard and kyla's dresser.. which was pretty much all pictures of her.. some towels (because of course I still need some) and I think that might be it. It felt like a lot until now. Maybe that's why I am so stressed.. because I still have SO much to do. *sigh*

So about my lack of sleep. I told everyone how kyla was wanting a cup and crap to take to bed yeah well that is followed by wanting in my bed too. Seriously?! It's so aggravating. So I gave in and whatever and let take the freaking cup (i'll break that dang habit later.. I need some fricken sleep!) But I don't want her in bed with me! I get the worst sleep EVER when she is in there. It's horrible.. it really is. She had about two nights in a row that went well.. the one night she woke up and I got her back to sleep within an hour the second night she didnt wake up at all. Hallelujah! (it's seriously been about two weeks since she's slept through the night.. possibly more.) I guess she made up for that last night, because she was horrible. So being the horrible mom I was I gave her the stinken cup in the middle of the night right? Gave her kiss laid her back down and that all was fine and dandy.. wrong, wrong, WRONG! She screamed and screamed and screamed and screamed.. and when I say screamed I mean SCREAMED. It was horrible. I think my neighbors heard her (mind you my neighbors are a good ways away.. I live on 15 acres of land) and she did that until she started gagging. Well obviously I couldn't just let her sit in their and make herself gag (see I am a good mom!) so I was like alright well i'll take you out of your crib and put you in your toddler bed (yes she has two beds up.. long story) and I'll lay with you. Perfect! She fell alseep.. I went to get up and it started all over again. I eventually gave in and put her in bed with me. I couldn't take it anymore.. I desperately need some sleep.. I have a lot to do! I think this whole situation is my biggest stress factor. I try so dang hard not to get her on bad habits and at seventeen months old she is doing the two biggest bad habits I said I wouldn't ever let her do (cup to bed and sleeping in my bed). Now don't get my wrong I am so for co-sleeping. If it works for your family then fantastic! It does NOT work for mine. If I were to co-sleep I would need a king size bed (we have a queen now) because she takes up SO much room.. such a little stinken girl. It blows my mind. And I spend half the night getting kicked (she sleeps like her momma) and it's such a hassle. I don't want to make excuses, but I think it's from getting her teeth. She got her one back tooth a couple weeks ago (and let me tell you that was pure hell) and I felt on the other side yesterday and it was swollen SO i'm really thinking she is getting another tooth. Could that be why she wants her momma? If so, I will feel horrible making her cry in her crib when she is in such agonizing pain and she wants me to snuggle her back to sleep.. (by the way I gave her teething tablets last night before bed thinking that might solve the problem.. and as you can see it did not). I just really want to get her back in her bed before we move because then I'm afraid I'll never get her in it after that! The move is going to be stressful enough on her and I don't want to make it worse by moving and putting her to bed in a room she's never seen in her life.. that's pretty scary! and I really don't want to keep her in my bed until we move and then until she gets used to the house because that's way to long for me. Considering I rambled so much about this problem I would probably say yes that is my biggest stress! Please tell me I am not alone.. Please tell me your kids went through this (and if they didn't then LIE! just kidding)

Enough Rambling. Good bye. :)

Excited!

So I got the phone call on Thursday that Tyler and I go the house for rent! Yay! :) We move out April 1st (actually second since the first is a friday), but they keys are ours then. I am pretty excited and nervous all at the same time. Kyla doesn't handle change well... at all! When we travel she gets constipated (every time, it never fails) and she doesn't sleep unless it is in her bed in her room. I thought she would outgrow that as she got older, but she definately didn't. I had to say at tyler's parents a couple weeks ago due to a crap ton of snow and she was up all night. It was ridiculous. She won't even nap anywhere else. It's crazy. This girl thrives on consistency. So to say this is going to be tough on her would be an understatement. On a positive note, moving/packing is great motivation to do some spring cleaning! I have actually thrown so much away today.. I didn't realize how much shit I actually had shoved in closets. Yikes! I also have two boxes packed! One is mine and tyler's summer clothes and the other box is clothes kyla doesn't fit into yet. It's hard to pack this soon, because I might need some of the stuff.. but at the same time I don't want to wait till the last minute either.. So I am just trying to pack what I can.

I also plan on starting kyla on potty training soon (not too soon, obviously, since were moving) I am going to wait until we are all settled their and she is used to it. I started it a little bit when she was 15 months old, but I ended up stopped. She kept getting sick or I was sick and we had that death in the family and stuff so I just put it on hold. I don't want to push something like this on her during stressful situations. Anyways, I am thinking about using those training underwear. I really dislike pull-ups.. because I mean they feel EXACTLY like diapers. How the heck is she going to know the difference? The training underwear feel like big girl underwear, but yet have a little bit of padding to help catch some of it. It also will give her the 'wet feeling'. I am hoping that will help her want to go on the potty. Does anyone have experience with these? I would love the feedback! Since I am kind of looking at those versus the pull-ups I got into the whole reading about cloth diapering stuff. I really regret now not cloth diapering. I feel insane saying that, but I am serious. I have had such a hard time with diapers on kyla. She can only use ONE kind of diaper. With all of those diapers on the market and I can only use one of them. She breaks out bad from all of them. I think I could have saved us a bunch of fuss if I would have atleast tried them. Her doctor said she's probably breaking out from the chemicals used in them (Wow.. chemicals.. that makes me feel like a crappy mom! no wonder she's breaking out i'm putting chemicals on her butt). It's the same way with wipes (but a tad better) I think she can use atleast three different types of wipes (only two brands though.. pampers and huggies). My guess would be pull-ups will probably break her out too. It wouldn't surprise me at all. So I really feel the training underwear are our best options.. and at the same time there are so many brands I don't even know what to choose! :( Maybe this potty training stuff is going to be more stressful to her than it is me...

I didn't really want to ramble that whole time about diapers and rashes and etc. I just wanted to tell everyone our exciting news and mention the training underwear. Sorry for getting a little out of control! I'm sure you forgive me though, right? :) Well I need to get a shower and get ready for bed. Tyler works all weekend so I will probably be stuck at home so i'm sure nothing exciting will happen. I hope everyone else has a great weekend though! :)

War Time.

Okay, seriously kyla?! Let me tell you this story. From day one kyla has NEVER had a bottle/cup in her bed.. I never associated the two together. She would drink her bottle (or now cup) THEN go to bed. So now why does she put up a fricken fight when I take it away.. and when I say fight I mean fight. She literally grabs a hold of it as hard as she can and screams bloody murder. Where the frick do that come from?? I mean really! She held onto it SO tight tonight that when I let go she smacked herself in the head with it. Where is this coming from?! OH and it doesn't stop there so I'm like sorry I am putting my foot down your not getting this damn cup child. I am the mother and I say so. Well she now wakes up in the middle of the night wanting a cup. Seriously kid?! You haven't gotten up in the middle of the night for a 'drink' (or meal since you were so small) since you were three weeks old. THREE WEEKS! You have been sleeping through the night (without a damn drink) since you were three weeks old.. and now at 16 1/2 almost 17 months you NOW want to wake up in the middle of the night?! Ugh! I am clue less. I am all for the cry-it-out method (judge if you want) but lately that doesn't even work. In the middle of the night she will scream for ATLEAST two hours. It's horrible. I know someone who puts their child to bed with a cup and then when she falls asleep she switches it out with a fresh one so if she wakes up she will drink it and go back to sleep.. and that's fine and dandy for her.. but I don't think I want to start that bad habit. I have worked my ass off for (almost) seventeen months to not get her started on any nasty habits.. (I took the binkie and bottle away before she was one just so I knew she wouldn't get attached) and now I am stuck in this awful dilemma. If anyone has any advice that would be wonderful! I really just needed to vent this all out!

P.S. Kyla I will win this war :)

Animal Sounds.

Me: Kyla what does a dog say?
Kyla: Woof Woof
Me: What does a chicken say?
Kyla: Cluck cluck (no idea where she got cluck cluck, but she won't say anything else!)
Me: What does a cow say?
Kyla: moooo
(this was the other day.)

Now this is what she said today.

Me: Kyla what does a chicken say?
Kyla: Cluck cluck!
Me: good job! cow?
Kyla: MOOOOO!
Me: yay! What does a dog say?
Kyla: grrr.
(wtf?!) haha. She has obviously been around a grumpy dog?

It seems like everytime I turn around..

I am apologizing on here. I said I was going to private this and start posting pictures and by that i'm sure you guys thought I meant soon (correct?). Well it was supposed to be soon, but then there is this thing called the flu that came across our household which put everything on hold! :( Today I will TRY to put some pictures up and private this thing.. but i'm sure you can imagine how my house looks since we've all been sick. yuck! Kyla's feeling better too (so far) so she should be a good picture taker! Let's hope ;)


Edit: I am going to make this easier on myself. Since I didn't realize I had to 'invite' people to my private blog.. if you want to be invited for when I make this blog private give me your email addresses and I will invite you! :) Thank you!